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July 28, 2019July 28, 2019niquedreaLeave a Comment on Meeting One of The Original Plaintiffs in Brown v. Board of Education

Meeting One of The Original Plaintiffs in Brown v. Board of Education

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Back in 2017, I made the decision to be intentionally celibate to relearn the parts of myself that had been used against me. Basically, what I wanted sex and sensuality to look like after healing from sexual violence. I had gone on a #mancation around 2012 I think, but didn't really think about the why or work on myself during that period. First time doing the segzy time afterwards, it was the eye contact that surprised me the most and made me feel insecure for a moment. Here I was, half naked, and he was focused on whether or not my eyes were open?! https://femmenoir.blog/2020/01/19/opia/ #femmenoir #linkinbio #opia #eyecontact #connection #poetry #bevulnerable #sex #sexytime #blacklove #blackcouples #browngirlswhowrite #writerssupportingwriters #bloggersofinstagram #poetsofinstagram #intensity #intentional #women #tension #healing #reclaimingmybody #powerafterthepain #workinprogress #LetsTalkAboutSexBaby #reclaimingnarratives

Content warning: sexual violence. I watched part 2 of the Surviving R. Kelly documentary a couple of days ago while working from home. Part of me thought I could forget some of things that had happened, maybe that would put me back in the "reckoning" stage. Wrong. I've come to terms with it. I've already reckoned with how nobody would believe me over my ex and his rockstar popularity. I was erased more and more everytime I walked down the hallways in high school. And I hear that erasure (decades of it) when I hear an R. Kelly song. Piss jokes and doing the love slide are more important than my (or any survivor's) night sweats and terrors. The voices of black survivors of sexual assault are stomped on in the name of pop culture. Don't accept it, but I know what I'm dealing with. https://femmenoir.blog/2020/01/15/already-reckoned-with/ #femmenoir #survivor #survivingrkelly #part2 #reckoning #stepinthenameoflove #peejokes #atwhoseexpense #blacksurvivors #sexualassault #violence #violenceagainstwomen #writerssupportingwriters #writersofinstagram #blackbloggers #blackgirlsmatter #blackvoicesmatter #poetry #poets #poetsofinstagram

New poem in the Blacked Out series! Can't believe we're already out part 10. Some of my posts are planned, some aren't. This one definitely wasn't. However, the past couple of mornings I've woken up thinking about what it would be like if I could remove all of the ignorant (mostly racist and microagression type) stuff that has been said- what would it look like? Does it consume me now? Would I feel lighter? I have no idea, but here ya go https://femmenoir.blog/2020/01/12/blacked-out-part-10-seeds/ #femmenoir #linkinbio #blackedout #black #seeds #buried #cement #carveit #poetry #poetsofinstagram #writerssupportingwriters #bloggersofinstagram #blackbloggers #browngirlswhowrite

A highly edited photo of me, taken at the end of 2018 in the bathroom at work. I would use the shower rooms to bathe and put on #makeup, thinking I could hide my insides from the outside world. End of 2018 and most of 2019 wasn't great, and I wasn't great to myself. But I'm proud of myself now and where we are so far on this journey. I started this blog post randomly on the bus to work one morning a few days ago, and finished it this morning. What makes you proud of yourself and where you are now? Let's engage in the comments 😊❤ https://femmenoir.blog/2020/01/05/proud-of-myself/ #femmenoir #proud #growthmindset #bloggersofinstagram #poweredbywordpress #brownbloggers #browngirlswhowrite #2020 #goals #volunteer #acluwa #dawn #community #lifteachotherup #supportnetwork #learn

Soy mi propia musa/I am my own muse. From the longer Frida Kahlo quote. Who woulda thought this journey of self-exploration and healing out loud, to add to the canon of what it means to be a black woman outchea, would have taken me this far? I sent some vague ass email with a screenshot of "swirly" cursive that one of their artists had done and said the quote I wanted. The delicacy of the cursive reminds me of the beauty in fragility and being vulnerable, but also it ain't that deep and I just like cursive. Thanks to Emma at @dzulinklounge for her delicate touch and work 💮💉

Last week, my therapist mentioned 'toxic positivity,' or people denying your emotions and invalidating your experiences in the name of just be happy. It's more than the one off doing things for that dopamine receptor reaction, and repeatedly not acknowledging how someone is feeling. I'm still working through it, but I decided to write about it. Lemme know your experiences and what you think :)) https://femmenoir.blog/2019/12/29/holidays-haunt-me-part-2-toxic-positivity/ #femmenoir #linkinbio #bloggersofinstagram #poweredbywordpress #holidayseason #holidays #2019 #2020 #newdecadenewme #healing #workingonself #workinprogress #thrive #learntothrive #legacy #blackbloggers #browngirlswhowrite #blackwordpress #blackwordpressblogger #wordpress

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